Day of turning from women to mother
Just another day for everyone else
But a day of abundance for me
I am so grateful dear god o shiv shiva o holy siddhas..o ma..for providing me this opportunity
I remember a year back when i was contemplating what to do next in life
What i desire without which i dont wanna leave this earth
It was to be a mother..to experience parenthood
To live life through another human life once again
To experience that love which ppl speak of..
...
Thank you o dear god..
5 october it is..
When god's blessing will be showered on me..
I look forward to meeting u lil one
I dont experience mushy emotions like lot of ppl
I go through critical events like a process one step at a time.
I am unable to articulate what am i feeling
Whats on my mind is logistics procedure things i will need for kid..billing etc..what not..
But unable to visualize or feel how it wud be to see u ..touch you..embrace u for the very first time..no book tv movie or article or blog of anybody can prepare me for it..
Its unparalleled..nothing like this has happened or will happen ever again..i wud never be a first time mum.
